This article is my first article, on my website, I am not using Chat GPT or AI assistants to write it, I have just felt the need to open up and express myself and here I am!
I have always been a perfectionist, trying to make sure everything is done perfectly, fast and get the satisfaction of parents, friends, teachers and now .. my clients!
I have always been behind my goals, feeling overwhelmed by details, to a point where I started facing harsh consequences in my academic and practical life, I have successfully finished my academic studies in Electromechanical engineering, but still this trait haunted me throughout my practical life.
But the more I engaged with projects in the practical life the pressure increased, creating a dilemma, either I quit doing what I plan to do, or I go forward and tolerate the non-perfectionism and I chose the later, but I didn’t anticipate the hardships of my choice.
Choosing to be someone different than who you are is like getting rid of a part of your body, it is painful to visualize my example, and it is more painful go through it practically, every time I have to take a step forward – say I need to create this website for example – I tend to over plan, feeling overwhelmed with all the tasks I need to do, I delay the execution, and feel more miserable about how late I am to get this done.
I don’t know what to name it, but let us name it “enforced tolerance”, was what I went through, letting go of those feelings and accepting the consequences of whatever is going to happen, and whether I will be able to deliver the quality needed to my clients or not through my services, because even after all the successful experiences planning, coaching, teaching, implementing systems, migrating data for my Notion clients, I still get those feelings, they are dissipating away a little bit by bit when I challenge them with practical actions and opening up, and so far, the results are positive more than I could have ever imagined!
If you read this article now, you are becoming a part of my life long journey, turning my imagination into reality and merging my and your realities together, they say connecting deeper in a work environment is not professional, I agree to an extent, but only if there are no relationship barriers established, there is no long term human to human relationship that doesn’t have a deeper connection than a mere professional goal supporting its existence.
Being perfect is a fear of connection and vulnerability, and I am starting my first article ever with something against my safety barriers, I decided to go with the flow and see how things will unfold, and I invite you to do the same!
No AI assistants or grammar checkers were touched during the writing of this article!